Sangre del Sol

Also this blog isn’t in use anymore.  I have a new one… Dudehoops.tumblr.com

its mostly about hooping, but there is other stuff in it aswell.  And I got fucking 30 or so followers!  EAT IT

after a year being on here I just figured out how to make things private.

rest easy

HI SAMMY

we got some beef to queef

A letter from this dude…

(9:17:49 pm):can you get girls?

(9:41:41 pm)Guilty_Spark:can i?

(9:41:47 pm)Guilty_Spark:I have in the past

(9:43:39 pm)Guilty_Spark:how long have you had your profile up?

(9:45:03 pm):2 weeks

(9:45:07 pm):i cant to save my life

(9:45:26 pm)Guilty_Spark:what about in real life?

(9:45:39 pm):same there, why im on this site lol

(9:45:43 pm):*hence why

(9:45:47 pm)Guilty_Spark:oh word

(9:46:26 pm):i have 0 swagger

(9:46:28 pm):and confidence

(9:46:37 pm)Guilty_Spark:hmmmm

(9:46:39 pm):and i feel entitled to both of them

(9:46:49 pm)Guilty_Spark:why? you look like a attractive dude?

(9:47:10 pm):i know im good looking

(9:47:18 pm):i have pretty girls who approach me

(9:47:39 pm):im shy and have no social skills

(9:47:40 pm)Guilty_Spark:you picky?

(9:48:16 pm)Guilty_Spark:damn dude your opening up to a complete stranger, anyone whos got the balls to do that can have what it takes to approach women

(9:48:31 pm):well i mean im behind a cpu screen….

(9:49:03 pm):i know what i have to do to get the skills too

(9:49:46 pm)Guilty_Spark:practice?

(9:49:51 pm):yeah

(9:50:30 pm):and i dont bc i feel entitled to them

(9:50:47 pm)Guilty_Spark:word… so idk if I reccomend this, ive never been to one but there are meetings in the city that help guys who dont have confidence

(9:51:02 pm):free?

(9:51:24 pm)Guilty_Spark:I think there feild training is free, by that I mean like going into the battlefield… by that I mean approaching women :p

(9:51:38 pm):i cant deal with failure

(9:51:47 pm)Guilty_Spark:look up NYC pickup artist sarging

(9:52:09 pm):a personal transformation doesnt happen overnigh

(9:52:10 pm):t

(9:52:52 pm)Guilty_Spark:no, never said it did, usually it takes time, practice, develping skills, techniques

(9:52:56 pm)Guilty_Spark:you play chess?

(9:53:02 pm):no

(9:53:08 pm):yeah thats just life on lifes terms

(9:53:14 pm):and i have no idea how you ppl do it

(9:54:37 pm)Guilty_Spark:wanna hear a funny story, I had a old profile on this site, back when I had long hair

(9:54:56 pm)Guilty_Spark:I met a girl, and fucked shit up miserably, over a single miscommunication

(9:55:09 pm)Guilty_Spark:meeting at a coffee shop, or meeting at her college

(9:55:15 pm)Guilty_Spark:I thought it was campus

(9:55:40 pm)Guilty_Spark:which was the previous agreement or whatever

(9:56:01 pm)Guilty_Spark:but she thought it was scary that I went to the campus instead of the coffee shop

(9:56:04 pm):let em guess, you fucked her?

(9:56:10 pm)Guilty_Spark:no no

(9:56:45 pm)Guilty_Spark:so she called campus security, and I almost got charged for 3rd degree staulking, Seriously this happened….

(9:57:01 pm):omg

(9:57:02 pm)Guilty_Spark:soooo long story short

(9:57:15 pm)Guilty_Spark:this girl was pretty nuts to begin with

(9:57:31 pm):how come you are confident?

(9:57:37 pm)Guilty_Spark:from this site I learned what this statement means

(9:58:00 pm)Guilty_Spark:dont fuck crazy otherwise crazy will fuck you. lol

(9:58:08 pm):lol

(10:00:11 pm)Guilty_Spark:yeah so thats a failure that ive had when it comes to girls on this site

(10:00:24 pm)Guilty_Spark:I dont know why im so confident honestly

(10:00:36 pm):what are you good at?

(10:00:56 pm):and im very very very jealous of you for that

(10:01:21 pm)Guilty_Spark:I fire spin, I know some magic tricks, I am a EMT

(10:01:39 pm):yeah you have skills which ads to your personality

(10:01:41 pm):i dont

(10:02:25 pm)Guilty_Spark:yeah

(10:02:29 pm)Guilty_Spark:what are you good at?

(10:02:37 pm):shooting heroin lol

(10:02:42 pm)Guilty_Spark:really?

(10:02:46 pm):which i cannot do anymore

(10:02:51 pm):yeah been clean for almost a year

(10:03:56 pm)Guilty_Spark:word

(10:03:58 pm)Guilty_Spark:thats good

(10:04:04 pm):life still sucks though

(10:04:09 pm):i dont know why i bother sometimes

(10:04:18 pm)Guilty_Spark:nah nah dont say that

(10:04:32 pm):well it is true

(10:04:39 pm):i still want to do it too….

(10:05:11 pm)Guilty_Spark:tell me about your self, not about the herion part, I mean if your trying to get girls thats not the right thing to start out with… but you probably know that

(10:05:26 pm):my life sucks

(10:05:29 pm):i dont know who i am

(10:05:35 pm)Guilty_Spark:neither do I dude

(10:05:50 pm)Guilty_Spark:you take any meds?

(10:05:52 pm)Guilty_Spark:I do

(10:05:54 pm):oh yeah

(10:07:33 pm)Guilty_Spark:yeah?

(10:07:49 pm):life really sucks

(10:07:51 pm):for me

(10:07:53 pm):not for you

(10:07:59 pm):for you life is prolly beautiful

(10:08:05 pm)Guilty_Spark:nah dud

(10:08:24 pm)Guilty_Spark:I work a shit dead end job, I talk to girls on this site cause its winter

(10:08:40 pm):what do you do?

(10:08:48 pm)Guilty_Spark:uhh…. I dont have a girlfriend

(10:08:58 pm)Guilty_Spark:I work retail, at brookstone

(10:09:07 pm):live at home?

(10:09:15 pm)Guilty_Spark:yeah with parents…

(10:09:25 pm):did you ever go to college?

(10:09:25 pm)Guilty_Spark:there is a caste system on this site

(10:09:33 pm)Guilty_Spark:I mean, for in real life too

(10:09:51 pm):true that

(10:09:54 pm):did you ever go to college?

(10:09:55 pm)Guilty_Spark:you become more attractive if you have these materialistic properties

(10:10:02 pm)Guilty_Spark:yeah I am still in college

(10:10:40 pm)Guilty_Spark:but girls like these things with men, which are jobs, a car, and a place to themselves

(10:11:21 pm)Guilty_Spark:so we start off on this site less attractive then men who have those things, its just more convienant for women

(10:11:48 pm):very true

(10:11:55 pm):hopefully in a year i will have a job

(10:12:04 pm):i dont want to live with my crazy jew parents forever

(10:14:37 pm)Guilty_Spark:yeah yeah

(10:15:07 pm):i have a few more years of shit ahead of me before i am happy

(10:15:10 pm):and confident

(10:15:12 pm):and have a gf

(10:16:49 pm)Guilty_Spark:yeah, try to focus on like

(10:17:08 pm):its fucking bullshit

(10:17:13 pm):if when i graduate

(10:17:17 pm):no job, no confidence

(10:17:19 pm):im relapsing

(10:17:26 pm)Guilty_Spark:having a girl in the future, like maybe you dont have the confidence now, so build yourself up untill your ready to try

(10:17:43 pm):i want instant fratification

(10:18:25 pm)Guilty_Spark:I know what you mean, but its not that easy

(10:18:36 pm):life sucks

(10:19:07 pm)Guilty_Spark:yeah.

(10:19:13 pm)Guilty_Spark:whats your name?

(10:19:16 pm):sam

(10:20:12 pm)Guilty_Spark:you know what sam means? “his name is god” thats a bitchin name

(10:20:23 pm)Guilty_Spark:my name is peter, it just means foundation

(10:20:26 pm)Guilty_Spark:or rock

(10:20:45 pm):i know if i stay clean i will eventually have the life i want

(10:21:01 pm)Guilty_Spark:stay clean then

(10:21:06 pm)Guilty_Spark:i mean

(10:21:10 pm):but i want it now

(10:21:13 pm)Guilty_Spark:its not that easy

(10:21:43 pm)Guilty_Spark:ive never shot up before so i dont know what its like

(10:22:00 pm)Guilty_Spark:but if you want life, like a good life, stay clean

(10:22:02 pm):its amazing

(10:22:11 pm)Guilty_Spark:have you ever had a girlfriend?

(10:22:14 pm):nope

(10:22:21 pm):havent been laid in over a year

(10:22:51 pm)Guilty_Spark:word

(10:22:58 pm)Guilty_Spark:dry spells happen

(10:23:06 pm):life just really sucks balls

(10:23:49 pm)Guilty_Spark:try not to focus on getting laid though, focus on yourself

(10:23:57 pm)Guilty_Spark:getting laid comes naturally

(10:24:06 pm):when was the last time you got laid?

(10:24:10 pm)Guilty_Spark:damn I am sounding like a preacher

(10:24:11 pm):and im so jealous of those who can

(10:24:35 pm)Guilty_Spark:eh… I got laid a week ago, but it doesnt count

(10:24:50 pm):lucky

(10:24:54 pm):why doesnt it count?

(10:25:16 pm)Guilty_Spark:its a girl who i can pretty much sleep with whenever… and I know that sounds amazing but its not as good as you think it is

(10:25:25 pm)Guilty_Spark:I like challenges I guess

(10:25:32 pm):god im so jealous

(10:25:45 pm):do you have any idea how much longer it will be before i can have something like that?

(10:26:56 pm)Guilty_Spark:honestly I have no clue man, I dont really know you but from your profile, it seems pretty good

(10:27:18 pm):one year later my self esteem is still in the toilet

(10:27:23 pm):and i have an anger problem

(10:27:44 pm)Guilty_Spark:I used to, now I am on meds though

(10:27:48 pm)Guilty_Spark:it helps a lot

(10:28:01 pm):were you always a natural with women?

(10:28:08 pm)Guilty_Spark:NOOOOO

(10:28:20 pm):then how did you get good>?

(10:28:22 pm)Guilty_Spark:when I was in highschool I didnt have ANY social skills

(10:28:29 pm):and the more important questoion

(10:28:32 pm):drumroll

(10:28:36 pm):how long did it take?

(10:28:43 pm):bc the journey can suck a dick

(10:28:48 pm):i only care about the outcome

(10:28:57 pm)Guilty_Spark:I fucking hid up in trees and watched people talking untill I learned the basics lol

(10:29:12 pm):dude please be serious

(10:29:25 pm)Guilty_Spark:no man I am dead serious

(10:29:41 pm)Guilty_Spark:that was awhile ago though

(10:29:45 pm):how long did it take for you to become good?

(10:29:49 pm):how old were you?

(10:29:54 pm)Guilty_Spark:ummm

(10:30:20 pm)Guilty_Spark:19, I would say thats when things started to piece together

(10:30:30 pm):you see im 22

(10:30:38 pm):what you did at 16,17,18

(10:30:40 pm):im doing now

(10:30:44 pm):or should be doing now

(10:31:06 pm)Guilty_Spark:16 I was in highschool and had my first gf at 15 or 16

(10:31:19 pm):im never going to have a gf

(10:32:08 pm)Guilty_Spark:17 I got laid, it was horrible… 18 I when to FL in college, screwed up there, had a gf but had anger issues, I was off meds. I never hit her but we always got into fights

(10:32:59 pm)Guilty_Spark:19/20 I had my first like amazing girlfriend, even though she wasnt like super attractive, she was really sweet and my like match

(10:33:31 pm)Guilty_Spark:though I never knew if I was in love or not at the time, which if you were to ask me now, I would say that was the closest I have ever got

(10:33:52 pm):im good looking

(10:33:56 pm):i should be able to get laid

(10:33:56 pm)Guilty_Spark:after that, I havent been with anyone since

(10:34:03 pm):but my personality sucks

(10:34:12 pm)Guilty_Spark:I banged someone that was 10 years older then me

(10:34:20 pm)Guilty_Spark:or she banged me I guess

(10:34:27 pm):i lost my virginity to a 32 year old milf

(10:34:34 pm)Guilty_Spark:right on

(10:34:44 pm)Guilty_Spark:how was that?

(10:35:01 pm):good

(10:35:47 pm)Guilty_Spark:thats good

(10:35:55 pm)Guilty_Spark:you get with anyone else?

(10:36:02 pm):one other girl

(10:36:23 pm)Guilty_Spark:awesome, that says it can happen again

(10:36:30 pm)Guilty_Spark:yeah?

(10:36:40 pm):not for awhile

(10:36:51 pm):my last relapse really fucked me up

(10:37:19 pm)Guilty_Spark:thats alright though, youve been clean for a year, things will pick up eventually

(10:37:33 pm):i wish i listenend the first time

(10:37:41 pm)Guilty_Spark:to whome?

(10:37:49 pm):the ppl in NA

(10:39:11 pm)Guilty_Spark:narcotics ?

(10:40:33 pm):yup

(10:40:59 pm)Guilty_Spark: you ever talk about this stuff with them?

(10:41:10 pm):no im too embarrassed too

(10:41:21 pm)Guilty_Spark:I would be aswell

(10:42:04 pm)Guilty_Spark:http://pick-up-artist.meetup.com/cities/us/ny/new_york/\

(10:42:21 pm)Guilty_Spark:thats going to look realy cheese but they know what they are doing

(10:42:33 pm):do you know from experience?

(10:42:52 pm)Guilty_Spark:I have a friend who has benefited from there meetings

(10:43:17 pm):are they expensive?

(10:43:26 pm)Guilty_Spark:he saidthat the people that are really nice, everyone works together, and you get to practice real shit

(10:44:00 pm):im giving up

(10:44:03 pm):its too late

(10:45:02 pm)Guilty_Spark:I can’t stop you… but honestly, in my opinion, from talking with you and reading your profile, your in a far better position then other guys on this site

(10:45:12 pm)Guilty_Spark:I have done my research on that too

(10:45:22 pm):explain more

(10:46:25 pm)Guilty_Spark:awhile back I set up a girl account, to see what other guys write to girls. you can do the same if you wish, just make sure you get the pictures from somewhere that people will never know

(10:47:07 pm)Guilty_Spark:okcupid is a science man, the message is the formula for…. fuck I dont know where I am going with this

(10:47:14 pm)Guilty_Spark:the first message is the hardes

(10:47:49 pm)Guilty_Spark:it takes me at least 30 minutes sometimes to write that first one, and most of the times its a waste of time, cause they dont respond

(10:48:17 pm)Guilty_Spark:but yeah, did any of that help?

(10:48:57 pm):its not abt messaging

(10:49:05 pm):its about talking to women

(10:52:37 pm)Guilty_Spark:well same goes

(10:52:51 pm)Guilty_Spark:introductions… they mean alot

(10:52:56 pm):it just takes time and practice :(

(10:54:04 pm):want to hear something fucked up i did

(10:54:06 pm):bc i was jealous

(10:54:26 pm)Guilty_Spark:yeah

(10:54:33 pm)Guilty_Spark:im all ears

(10:54:37 pm):this guy who i used to be my friend

(10:54:46 pm):was just as bad (maybe even worse) than me

(10:54:52 pm):and he developed a passion

(10:54:56 pm):practiced

(10:54:59 pm):and got a gf

(10:55:02 pm):she had no tits

(10:55:07 pm):and we got into a fight

(10:55:13 pm):and i hacked onto his facebook

(10:55:27 pm):and saw him messaging as friend of his saying “i need a gf with bigger tits”

(10:55:40 pm):i forwarded that to his gf and she dumped him hahahahaha :)

(10:56:51 pm)Guilty_Spark:thats not too fucked up, I can hack peoples facebook accounts as long as that person is using the same wifi router as mine

(10:57:11 pm):i still so jealous of him though

(10:58:13 pm)Guilty_Spark:you want to see some messages I sent people?

(10:58:24 pm):why not

(11:00:12 pm)Guilty_Spark:you ever notice in some girls profiles they will say

(11:00:33 pm)Guilty_Spark:dont bother messaging me if your just going to say I am sexxi or whatever

(11:00:50 pm):yes

(11:01:30 pm)Guilty_Spark:this message I wrote was to combat other messages, I guess

(11:01:43 pm)Guilty_Spark:Whats a good message to you? I think not many people write awesome messages. I think common ones would be about how many similarities you have with that person, so guys probably write something like “I like NIN too” or a nice comment about your pictures. Also I can’t imagine a guy putting, “hey your sexxi” in a message… You, in your self summary, are different. so all the usual bullshit messages probably are ignored. Behavior, from messages, from someones profile summary, even pictures… going out on a limb here… but I think thats why you might be on OKC. I think you could easily find a relationship without the use of this site. So why are you here? and why are the words on the wall in your first two pictures backwards? did you take that shot through a mirror? Hopefully, when your looking through your inbox, that this one(hopefully) is different from the rest. that being said… imma take a nap. Peace

(11:02:23 pm)Guilty_Spark:the second paragraph(which started at Behavior, from messages, shows I actually read her profile

(11:02:34 pm):did you wind up fucking her?

(11:02:45 pm)Guilty_Spark:nah but I am talking to her now

(11:02:52 pm):is she hot?

(11:03:07 pm)Guilty_Spark:yeah, I think shes pretty

(11:03:15 pm)Guilty_Spark:she isnt like model status

(11:03:16 pm):can i see?

(11:03:59 pm)Guilty_Spark:yeah sure, but if you decide to message her, try not to mention me lol, that would be akward

(11:04:08 pm):i wont

(11:04:09 pm)Guilty_Spark:mylittletoy

(11:04:15 pm)Guilty_Spark:search that

(11:04:33 pm):yo u gtg ttyl

(11:04:57 pm)Guilty_Spark:cya, stay clean and get laid ;p

(11:19:42 pm):well see